I THINK....

GOD DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE PEOPLE YOU WANT...

HE GIVES YOU THE PEOPLE YOU NEED....

TO HELP YOU..TO HURT YOU..TO LEAVE YOU..TO LOVE YOU..

AND TO MAKE YOU INTO THE PERSON YOU WERE MEANT TO BE.....

SORRY...

Please let us be friends again...

Please let me say I'm sorry if I've been unkind...

The thought that I might have hurt you..

lies heavy on my mind.

I can't turn back the hands of time,

or do things differently..

I only could find away of you forgiving me.

I'm hoping I can put things right,

It's really a shame that this should come between us..

So...Please let's us be friend again..

ANOTHER NOTES

Before i met you,

I thought my life was going pretty well..

but then you came along.

You've brought more passion,

wonder and excitement tome..

than I ever thought possible.

And you've made me realize,

what had been missing in my life...

all along..

LETTER FOR MY SON...

Dear.my son....

I just want you to know..how proud i'm of you. I'm glad that we have the mother and son relationship..and that you know you can trust me and talk to me about anything.

I'm not the perfect the mother..I've made my mistakes and i know those mistakes have hurt you and i'm so sorry and i hope you can forgive me for those. But i know one thing that i don't regret is.. having you when i did. I'm honored to be the one who saw your first step...hear your first words. There's so many things that i've watched you do that just surprise to me..

I know that you will go far in this life..to discover the world of your own..but please know that i'll be with you no matter where you go and that i'll be there anytime and anywhere you may need me.

You are my heart..my soul..my life and my world.

I love you my son very much...and i just want to thank you for the best years of my life

DREAMS...

I hold in my hand this dream...

The dream of tomorrow..the hopes for today..

and a smile to brighten my way...

It's not easy to know which path you follow..

Which decision you make..or what you do..

But..life is series of new hopes..new days..and changes that come to you..

I'm thankful everyday just to be alive..

I'm thankful everyday for everything i have experienced..

I'm thankful everyday for all the tears i cried..

I'm thankful everyday for the pain i have known..

And I'm thankful everyday for all the blessing that God had given to me....

LOSING SOMETHING..

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost...

Sometimes..you love something so much that it hurt  to leave it..

Sometimes..it hurt too much to hold on to that something you love..

And sometimes..you let go of what you love because it hurt..

but then ..you get it back..

Often times..we say goodbye to the person you love without wanting to..

Though that doesn't mean that we've stopped loving them..

or we've stopped to care..

Sometimes..good bye is painful way to say " I LOVE YOU"...

MISSING YOU..

I miss you even more that i could believed..

I miss you so much...

If i hadn't met you..i wouldn't like you..

If i hadn't like you..i wouldn't miss you..

But i did..and i do...

And if i can't have you at least i was able to know i had you..

I fear that someday time would keep us apart..

And you might forget about me..

But before it happens..i hope that you have felt..even for a single chance,

that i have cared for you..best way i know..

You maybe out of my sight..but you never out of my mind..

And there's still a place in me where a part of you ..

will always be a part of me....

JUST A NOTE

Hidup adalah soal keberanian, karena hidup ini adalah sebuah pertandingan besar yang membutuhkan keberanian untuk menghadapinya.

Kematian adalah kenyataan. Tidak ada yang bisa menolak kematian dan tidak ada yang bisa menahan kematian.

Karena ujung kehidupan kita di dunia ini hanya satu...yaitu MATI.

Ketika kita merasa sedih dan hampa...ALLAH menjadi teman kita

Ketika kita merasa sendiri...ALLAH selalu ada bersama kita

ALLAH adalah teman baik kita....

Tidakkah cukup ALLAH bagimu? 

Jangan pernah merasa takut karena ALLAH akan mencukupkan hidupmu..

Tidak ada yang bisa menyingkap kesulitan selain ALLAH..

Dan tidak ada yang dapat memberi rezeki selain ALLAH..

Yakinlah bahwa ALLAH adalah sebaik-baiknya Penjaga dan Dia adalah Maha Penyayang diantara para penyayang...

Hanya cinta pada ALLAH lah cinta yang paling abadi....

IN THE END

And in the end we have to say good  bye..

No matter how you love something...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how your feeling for someone...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how you like someone...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how sad your feeling are...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how hurt your feelling are...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how difficult your problems are...in the end we have to say good bye

No matter how happy you are...in the end we have to say good bye

But in the end i won't say good bye..no matter how..

SOMETIMES

Sometimes...life just isn't fair

Sometimes...things aren't always as they seem

Sometimes...people just don't understand

Sometimes...we need someone to help

Sometimes...we just need to get away

And sometimes...it hard to say why things have to be this way

ALONE

It feel so great sometimes for being alone..feel free to do whatever you want..and being alone is fun sometimes cause you can be whoever you want.

But..it feel so lonely sometimes for being alone...it's sick sometimes...and the worst is it's pathetic...cause you have no one beside you...someone that you could  share with.

Because sometimes in this life..there's still something that you can not face it just by your self...

Being alone is great....and pathetic!

KNOWING YOU

Knowing you is really a blessing for me...i always get something from you...and i learn something from you...and i'm really glad to know you.

Knowing you is really a blessing for me...because you never judge me as a bad person...you never say that i'm useless...just like everyone did.

Knowing you is really a blessing for me...you taught me about love..if you love something doesn't mean that you have to own that..and you taught me about life.

Knowing you is really a blessing for me...because you always supported me with your words...and that means alot to me.

Having you as a ....... is really a blessing for me..and hope God will always give His blessing to you as you did for me.

THE MEANING OF LIFE

Life's about choices..rather you wanna be good or bad. God created us as a leader on earth..and we must obey and do what become God's rule.The choices is on us...

Destiny's something that already happen to us..and we still can change our destiny before it's really happen. You will never know what your destiny is until it's happen.

Life's also about death..because at in the end we all gonna die..after that it become your destiny.

Life's about choices..rather you wanna be good or bad..it's all your choice..and the choices on us....

HIDUPKU...

Hidupku adalah jalanku

Hidupku adalah duniaku

Hidupku adalah marahku

Hidupku adalah sesalku

Hidupku adalah bodohku

Hidupku adalah lemahku

Hidupku adalah MATIKU

JANGAN PERNAH

jangan pernah menghukum aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku..

jangan pernah menjauhi aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku..

jangan pernah membenci aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku...

jangan pernah meninggalkan aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku..

jangan pernah melupakan aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku...

ingatlah aku atas apa yang terjadi padaku... 

IN MY LIFE..I LOVE YOU MORE..

There are places i remember..

All my life..though some have changed

Some forever..not for better

And some have gone and some remain

All these places have their moments

With lovers and friends i still can't recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life i love them all

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When i think of love as something new

Though i know i'll never ever lose affection

For people and things that went before

I know i'll often stop and think about them

In my life ..I love you more

JUST A SONG

Here close to our feelings

We touch again..we love again

Remember when we thought our hearts would never mend

And we're all the better for each other

There's more tolove..i know

Than making love

Here no more confusion

We see our lives..we live our lives

Remember when we thought we never would survive

But now neither one of us is breaking

There's more to love..i know

Than making love

Something's gonna change

Somethings sometimes do

And now i'm feeling strong enough to let you in

And noe neither one of us is breaking

Now we know there's more to love

Than making love

And i'll remember you and making love..

And i'll remember you..

                                                                                        a song lyric by roberta flack that i like so 

                                                                                        much...

                                                                                        

TIRED...

Why i always have to make other people happy? Why i always trying to make them feel happy..why they always become the first? And what about me?Don't you think i should be happy too? Don't you think i also deserve to be the first?

Why should i care about other people think? Why can they just let me do whatever i want..as long as i'm not bothering them! Why people have to judge other people attitude? God is the only one who can judge me..

I'm just an ordinary woman..i'm just trying to make my life has a meaning..but i also need to have my own world..why should i pretend that i'm happy when i'm with them? Please just give me some room..so i can be more better than i was before

DEAR GOD...

Dear God....

Please forgive me for all my sin...

Please forgive me for all my fault...

When i have a problem i always comes to You

But when i was happy..i sometimes forget about You

And I become Your ungrateful creature sometimes...

Dear God...

Please don't leave me alone in my own confusion

Please hold me in Your hands so i won't be fall again

Please take me to Your home so i won't be lost again

Dear God...

I miss You more than anything in this world

Missing You always makes me cry

Missing You always makes me feel useless

Cos i'm just nothing in front of You

Dear God...

Thank you for all the blessed that You've given me

For the good things and for all the bad...

Thank you for everything...

Dear God...

Please take me away with You...

So i can be with You forever...

KEMATIAN...

Kematian itu indah..kematian itu anugrah..kematian itu adalah awal dari hidup yang abadi.Kematian akan datang pada saat yang tidak terduga..jadi kenapa kita harus takut untuk mati?Takut akan kematian adalah wajar...lalu kenapa kita tidak mencoba untuk belajar menerima kematian? Mempersiapkan diri untuk mati..mungkin itu lebih baik . Takut akan kematian ada pada setiap manusia..takut karena terlalu banyak dosa yang diperbuat. Sebagai manusia..kita juga punya rasa takut akan kematian..tapi andai waktu kita sudah datang apakah kita bisa menghindar dari kematian?Kematian memang bukan penyelesaian masalah..tapi alangkah nikmatnya jika kita bisa terlepas dari semua hal yang mengikat..Sungguh KEMATIAN ITU INDAH...

FINALLY...

finally i have my own room to spend my time alone...! Because sometimes i really need to be alone with my self..place where i can be whatever i want..a place where i can be whoever i want..a place to share all of my feeling..my tears..my angry..my sadness..my happiness..a place where i can escape for awhile from all my routine..a place where i can talk with my Greatest..